Well, the time has come. It's finally time for me to return to work. On one hand I am so, so excited, and on the other I'm so nervous, and so, so not ready to leave my baby!
I have tremendous guilt, as with Phoebe I wasn't working until I got this job when she was nearly turning 2. So I completely relished in her first 2 years of life, and I was with her every step of the way.
Ellie is only 8 months old, and Im returning to work :( I do only work evenings, so it makes it a lot easier. I start work at 5pm and finish at 9pm. I'm very lucky that my children are basically in bed whilst I am at work. But, that still doesn't make my mummy guilt any easier!!
It's so difficult trying to juggle everything. You're trying to be the best mummy you can, but at the same time be the best partner/wife. If I had it my way, I would win the lottery and never work again, whilst completely enjoying my life with my children (who wouldn't though ey?)
I keep jumping back and forth from, 'Yes, I am so ready to go back to work, and I've really made the most of my time off', too 'Nope! Nope! So not ready for this at all!!!'
I'm sure once my first shift is over with, I will just be thinking, 'well that was easy!' (minus the sore feet hehe)
But this mummy has to go out and make a life for herself, and get successful in her career.
So wish me luck, and lets hope I survive my first week back at work. My uniform is washed, and ironed all ready. And I've even treated myself to some new work shoes. Hehe.
Sophie-Evelyn xoxo
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